We are the Son of God. We are in Heaven safe in the arms of God. That is the truth. Why have we lost the awareness of our reality? We must be actively doing something to block the truth. If we want to remember God, we have to stop doing whatever we did to have lost our awareness. We chose to forget God and believe in the unreal. We chose to deny the truth and believe in the separation. We need to stop doing that.

The same thing is reflected in the level down from the above described level. The forgiven world, the forgiven body and the forgiven personality self are there. We just are not aware of them. We cannot “see” them. Why? Because we are actively doing something to block that “truth.” We are choosing to deny the reality of the unseen and believe the seen. There is a supernatural world available to us where everything is provided and nothing is lacking.

What would we be if we didn’t have to do something to get something? What would we be without a problem or a worry because everything we needed was provided, until we realized that we didn’t need anything? If we perceived no lack, we wouldn’t have to make idols to fill a void left by the separation. Nothing would be missing.

The awareness of this world we cannot see, comes at a price. We must “sacrifice” our belief in the “seen world”, this body and this personality self. They must be dispelled. (caused to vanish) How does that happen? We must withdraw all investment in them. They must become insignificant. Withdraw all investment from something the ego tells us is our protection, our salvation? And that is where the fear and resistance comes in.

Illusions are investments. They will last as long as you value them. Values are relative, but they are powerful because they are mental judgments. The only way to dispel illusions (cause them to vanish) is to withdraw all investment from them, and they will have no life for you because you will have put them out of your mind. (T-7.VII.4:1-4)

We are like an addict. An addict feels emotional pain and uses something to make him feel better. It seems to work for the moment. In our mind, at the separation, we experienced excruciating fear and guilt. We needed to relieve the pain, so we made a world and believed in it. We made up a magical solution. Magic, or self-reliance, is believed because it seems to work. And our drug seemed to work. The cover for our agony, the illusion, was not perfect but was 1000% better than the alternative.

We are addicts and like addicts we will use every form of twisted logic to access and maintain our supply. We will use denial, self-deception, obfuscation, projection, attack and even murder to keep the whole separation thing going. The ego feels threatened. As long as we identify with it, so will we.

If we desire to get sober of the illusion and regain our awareness of the real world, the Holy Spirit will show us the way. One of the first things He may show us is that we are responsible for everything seemingly happening in the world. Everything. The real world is there and we, as mind, are ferociously, psychotically and vigilantly scribbling all sorts of separation stories over the top of it, in an attempt to obliterate its existence. We scribble stories of sickness, death, poverty, wars, plagues and injustice. We also scribble stories of love, compassion, prosperity and triumph. None of them are real. Not one. But we keep scribbling and believing. We must learn to stop scribbling and to give up our historical scribblings. We must learn to stop projecting, miscreating and to give up our past projections and miscreations.

What is meaningless is neither good nor bad. Why, then, should a meaningless world upset you? If you could accept the world as meaningless and let the truth be written upon it for you, it would make you indescribably happy. But because it is meaningless, you are impelled to write upon it what you would have it be. It is this you see in it. It is this that is meaningless in truth. Beneath your words is written the Word of God. The truth upsets you now, but when your words have been erased, you will see His. (W-12.5:1-8)

Those scribblings are not the script. They are the rantings and ravings of a mad man. There is only one script and that is the Holy Spirit’s script of salvation.

As you look with open eyes upon your world, it must occur to you that you have withdrawn into insanity. You see what is not there, and you hear what makes no sound. Your manifestations of emotions are the opposite of what the emotions are. You communicate with no one, and you are as isolated from reality as if you were alone in all the universe. In your madness you overlook reality completely, and you see only your own split mind everywhere you look. God calls you and you do not hear, for you are preoccupied with your own voice. And the vision of Christ is not in your sight, for you look upon yourself alone. (T-13.V.6:1-7)

The purpose of Atonement is to dispel illusions (cause them to vanish by withdrawing our investment in them = forgiveness-for-salvation), not to establish them as real and then forgive them. (forgiveness-to-destroy) (T-13.X.6:6)

An example of forgiveness-to-destroy is to accept emotions as real and then forgive them. Emotions are devices the ego mind made up to animate the avatar. They are a deceptive device that has us believing that the self we made is real. There is no difference between emotion and pain. They are both deception tools. They are both caused by a perceptual problem. And we can learn how not to engage with either of them.

But you can see how the ego enrolls us in the validity of emotions. We need to have our emotions. We need to release them. We need to not deny them. First of all, they are not our emotions. We are the Son of God. They are the personality self’s, we made up, emotions. We made the personality self and then we gave it emotions. So when we are watching a movie and a scene upsets us, we are not upset. The personality self is upset. The first is forgiveness-to-destroy. The second is forgiveness-for-salvation.

Another example of forgiveness-to-destroy is to tell a tale of something we did in the illusion and then “overlook it.” We make the self we made real, by saying it did something. The statement that we did something is a denial of who we are in truth. We are making the error real. We did not do anything, good or bad, in the illusion. We are the Son of God. In order for it to be true forgiveness, we have to start with the truth. I am the Son of God. Then we bring the error to the truth. At one level of awareness we can say, “My personality self did xyz.” Or we could say, “The mind instructed my avatar to do xyz.” That does not make the error real.

More later.