We came and made a self to replace the Self we are.

Here is the one emotion (fear) that keeps you blind, dependent on the self you think you made to lead you through the world it made for you.” (T-22.I.4:10)

Only if it were possible the Son of God could leave his Father’s Mind, make himself different and oppose His Will, would it be possible that the self he made, and all it made, should be his master.” (T-22.II.9:6)

The learning of the world is built upon a concept of the self adjusted to the world’s reality. It fits it well. For this an image is that suits a world of shadows and illusions. Here it walks at home, where what it sees is one with it. The building of a concept of the self is what the learning of the world is for. This is its purpose; that you come without a self, and make one as you go along. And by the time you reach “maturity” you have perfected it, to meet the world on equal terms, at one with its demands.

A concept of the self is made by you. It bears no likeness to yourself at all. It is an idol, made to take the place of your reality as Son of God.” (T-31.V.1:1–2:3)

The self you made is not the Son of God. Therefore, this self does not exist at all. And anything it seems to do and think means nothing. It is neither bad nor good. It is unreal, and nothing more than that. It does not battle with the Son of God. It does not hurt him, nor attack his peace. It has not changed creation, nor reduced eternal sinlessness to sin, and love to hate. What power can this self you made possess, when it would contradict the Will of God?” (W-93.5:1-9)

Be glad today, in loving thankfulness, your Father has not left you to yourself, nor let you wander in the dark alone. Be grateful He has saved you from the self you thought you made to take the place of Him and His creation. Give Him thanks today.” (W-123.2:2-4)

This is your chosen self, the one you made as a replacement for reality. This is the self you savagely defend against all reason, every evidence, and all the witnesses with proof to show this is not you. You heed them not. You go on your appointed way, with eyes cast down lest you might catch a glimpse of truth, and be released from self-deception and set free.” (W-166.7:1-4)

What he does not realize and needs to learn is that this “self,” which can attack and be attacked as well, is a concept he made up. Further, he cherishes it, defends it, and is sometimes even willing to “sacrifice” his “life” on its behalf. For he regards it as himself. This self he sees as being acted on, reacting to external forces as they demand, and helpless midst the power of the world.” (P-1.3:3-6)

This self we made that is not real that we delusionally believe we are is constructed of two major aspects. These two aspects are the atheist and the martyr.

No right mind can believe that its will is stronger than God’s. If, then, a mind believes that its will is different from His, it can only decide either that there is no God or that God’s Will is fearful. The former accounts for the atheist and the latter for the martyr, who believes that God demands sacrifices. Either of these insane decisions will induce panic, because the atheist believes he is alone, and the martyr believes that God is crucifying him. Yet no one really wants either abandonment or retaliation, even though many may seek both.” (T-9.I.8:1-5)

Every self that is constructed has elements of the atheist and the martyr in varying degrees. Some selves are almost pure atheist or martyr. Other selves are half and half and still others are different percentage combinations.

How is it helpful to explore the construct of the self we made and think we are?

The patient need not think of truth as God in order to make progress in salvation. But he must begin to separate truth from illusion, recognizing that they are not the same, and becoming increasingly willing to see illusions as false and to accept the truth as true.” (P-1.5:1-2)

As we learn to separate truth from illusion, the Holy Spirit can use the self we made to demonstrate how the ego made the self and how we were convinced that we were that self. We believe that the self we made is real or true. If we give the Holy Spirit the chance he will reason with us so that we might learn to see the self we made as false without accepting it as true (forgiveness).

Through Him (Holy Spirit) you learn how to forgive the self you think you made, and let it disappear.” (W-121.6:4-5)

Yet who can save unless he sees illusions and then identifies them as what they are? Jesus remains a Savior because he saw the false without accepting it as true.” (C-5.2:4-6)

In the Holy Spirit’s hands the self we made can be used to free ourselves from the belief in the false way we see ourselves and reclaim our peace.

Yet is all learning that the world directs begun and ended with the single aim of teaching you this concept of yourself, that you will choose to follow this world’s laws, and never seek to go beyond its roads nor realize the way you see yourself. Now must the Holy Spirit find a way to help you see this concept of the self must be undone, if any peace of mind is to be given you.” (T-31.V.8:2-4)

Looking openly at the construct of the self we made, we can help to raise a question about the ego’s thinking where once there was none.

Where concepts of the self have been laid by is truth revealed exactly as it is. When every concept has been raised to doubt and question, and been recognized as made on no assumptions that would stand the light, then is the truth left free to enter in its sanctuary, clean and free of guilt. There is no statement that the world is more afraid to hear than this:

I do not know the thing I am, and therefore do not know what I am doing, where I am, or how to look upon the world or on myself.

Yet in this learning is salvation born. And What you are will tell you of Itself.” (T-31.V.17:4-9)

The concept of the self stands like a shield, a silent barricade before the truth, and hides it from your sight.” (T-31.VII.7:1)

Next time – The Atheist Martyr Construct 2