We, as mind, have taught ourselves that we are the puppet self we made. Then we forgot or dissociated that we taught it to ourselves. We have brainwashed ourselves. Now there is seemingly no “you” to remember who we are in truth.

Everyone who needs help, regardless of the form of his distress, is attacking himself, and his peace of mind is suffering in consequence. These tendencies are often described as “self-destructive,” and the patient often regards them in that way himself. What he does not realize and needs to learn is that this “self,” which can attack and be attacked as well, is a concept he made up. Further, he cherishes it, defends it, and is sometimes even willing to “sacrifice” his “life” on its behalf. For he regards it as himself. This self he sees as being acted on, reacting to external forces as they demand, and helpless midst the power of the world.” (P-1.3:1-6)

This is your chosen self, the one you made as a replacement for reality. This is the self you savagely defend against all reason, every evidence, and all the witnesses with proof to show this is not you. You heed them not. You go on your appointed way, with eyes cast down lest you might catch a glimpse of truth, and be released from self-deception and set free.” (W-166.7:1-4)

We, as ego, have made such an incredible defense system to keep us as far away from the idea that we could not be this self, this puppet, as possible.

This becomes problematic when our major imperatives are…

Salvation requires the acceptance of but one thought;—you are as God created you, not what you made of yourself.” (W-93.7:1)

Through Him you learn how to forgive the self you think you made, and let it disappear.” (W-121.6:4-5)

We are told over and over again in the Course that we are not this self we made. How can you tell whether you believe you are or are not this self?

You are free to believe what you choose, and what you do attests to what you believe.” (T-1.II.1:9)

If you are willing to look at the puppet’s actions and ask for what purpose, you are on your way to truth. You have begun the journey to letting the selves you made disappear.

What for?” This is the question that you must learn to ask in connection with everything. What is the purpose?” (T-4.V.6:7-9)

Ultimately we must want the truth more than we want the self we made to replace our Self to be real. The Course tells us to have no investment in the world or the things of the world of which the self we made is a major component.

Illusions are investments. They will last as long as you value them. Values are relative, but they are powerful because they are mental judgments. The only way to dispel illusions is to withdraw all investment from them, and they will have no life for you because you will have put them out of your mind. While you include them in it, you are giving life to them. Except there is nothing there to receive your gift.” (T-7.VII.4:1-6)

Write down on a piece of paper all the illusions you value. Who is the “you” valuing them and why?

If you hear to, you can read the following sections in the Course that talk about the self you made to further challenge your belief that you are the puppet.

Lesson 166 I am entrusted with the gifts of God. (W-166- This is the prodigal son story.

V. Self-Concept versus Self (T-31.V)

Be glad today, in loving thankfulness, your Father has not left you to yourself, nor let you wander in the dark alone. Be grateful He has saved you from the self you thought you made to take the place of Him and His creation. Give Him thanks today.” (W-123.2:2-4)

Next time – The Atheist Martyr Construct 10